Well, it's been a while since I updated. It was kind of hard with the last cycle. My husband and I were on our way to the transfer and we got the phone call. None of the little embies made it :( It hurt and it really sucked. But we got through it and I tried to stay strong for my IM. The last thing she needs is me upset. I'm sure she was having a tough time with it and I only wanted to be there for her. Even though on the inside I was crying... They are such wonderful people and I am so glad we were matched together.
So they changed up the protocol and had us start meds up again. I have been on Lupron for a few weeks now and Estradiol for a few days. It seems to be going well and I had my 3rd appointment this cycle and my lining is already at 14! So seems like we are doing good. I texted D today and she said she has to do her Lupron 2x a day. Which sucks! I feel like she shouldn't have to go through any type of pain. But, it will all be over soon and she will get rewarded at the end. I just feel like this is her special time and I want her to be as comfortable as possible. We transfer Feb 14th, my Grandma's bday and Valentine's Day! :) So it's not hard to forget! I really hope they don't change the date, but I'm sure it will.
I know it's way too soon! But, I often wonder how things will be like when I give birth. I hope they are comfortable enough being in the room. I need my mommy there to hold my hand and be my coach and I hope that doesn't make them feel awkward or anything. Or like it's MY experience. I just hope that everything goes well... that's one of the biggest moments for a surrogate and why do I feel like I'm going to mess it up? I mean, my mom is my biggest advocate and when I'm in too much pain to make my own decisions, she is always right there. She was with me for both of my deliveries and I thank GOD she was.
Anyway! Enough about that! I am just way too excited for this cycle and really do hope for the best! So yay for us and hope my next post will be nothing but good news! :) <3
